Ch. Chapter 5 After rebirth, I designed my husband and I to miss each other again and again Chapter 5

It felt like something exploded in my head. 

Even with the fabric between us, my hand felt 

like it was burning, and I wanted to pull away. 

I tried to pull my hand back, but he held on 

tighter. 

The air was thick with tension. 

“Ethan, you’ve had too much to drink…” 

“Ashley, weren’t you touching me like this. 

back then? Why are you running away now? 

You didn’t hold back when you were messing 

with it eight years ago.” 

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But his words made it all come flooding back, 

filling me with shame. 

“Remember now? Your face is burning up.” 

I realized Ethan was rubbing his cheek 

against mine. 

“Ashley, you don’t have a boyfriend, do you? 

Someone who has a boyfriend wouldn’t react 

like this.” He kissed my lips, slowly teasing 

them. “Ashley, let’s finish what you wanted to 

do eight years ago.” 

In the darkness, his eyes were hypnotic. 

They made me want to give in, to comfort 

him. 

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He scooped me up in his arms. 

He tossed me onto the couch in front of the 

window. 

I melted into him, letting him wrap around me. 

Then he touched me in a place that was 

forbidden. 

I felt a sharp pain in my head and realized I 

was drunk too. 

“Ethan, no! We can’t do this. I should go…” 

I stood up, but he pushed me back down. 

“Am I not doing a good job? Why do you want 

to leave?” 

“Do you hate me that much?” 

How could I hate him? 

Even though time had passed, and I’d learned 

to heal, I still loved him. 

Everyone knew I loved him. 

Tears welled up in his eyes. 

He had so much to offer, but he was acting 

like a desperate product, begging me to take 

him. 

But something felt off. 

I thought about it for a long time before 

realizing what it was. 

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“Don’t you like my sister?” 

Ethan froze for a second. “When did I ever 

say I liked your sister?” 

I was shocked. Had he not? 

But the voice in my head that day I woke up 

had told me he liked Sarah. 

Ethan saw that I was confused and then he 

became happy. 

“You thought I liked your sister? Is that why 

you’ve been avoiding me?” 

“I was not, you are who I love. I want to tell 

you this now, can you be with me?” 

My head was spinning. 

It felt like everything was upside down. 

I didn’t know what was real anymore. He 

kissed me again. 

The moment our skin touched, the visions of 

my horrible death flashed before my eyes. 

Was it all a lie? 

But the pain, the weakness, felt so real. 

It felt like there was a thorn between Ethan 

and me. Whenever we got close, I felt pain. 

Fear made me snap out of it. 

I pushed Ethan away. 

“I told you, I have a boyfriend. I can’t cheat on 

him.” 

Ethan let out a bitter laugh. “Why didn’t you 

say you had a boyfriend when we were 

kissing? You seemed into it. Didn’t you think 

about him then?” 

Why was he always so clearheaded when he 

didn’t need to be? 

I didn’t know what to say, so I just made up 

an excuse. 

“You know I’m not a good person. Otherwise, 

I wouldn’t have done what I did back then. I 

just had a moment of clarity.” 

Ethan’s eyes turned dark. 

He seemed angry. 

“I think they’re right. I shouldn’t have let you 

off the hook so easily. You need to be 

punished.” 

My heart jumped. “What are you going to 

do?”