Chapter 1

When Ethan chased after his white moonlight

overseas, I begged him not to go, but he

didn’t even turn around.

A year later, I got married, and Ethan flew

back.

Seeing my wedding ring, the always spoiled

Ethan broke down.

He forced a smile. “Lauren, do you want to

take it off yourself, or should I?”

His voice trembled. “I’ll buy you any ring you

want, just take this one off, please.”

My wedding was small, just a dozen close

friends and family for dinner.

My husband, bless him, didn’t let me lift a

finger, taking care of the guests while I

chatted with my best friend.

Zoe, my best friend, was quite emotional

seeing me married. “I thought you’d wait for

Ethan forever.”

I smiled faintly. “I thought so, too.”

She said, “Does Ethan know you’re married?”

I shook my head. “No. And he doesn’t need to

know.” 

She paused. “I heard Ethan booked a flight

last night, went crazy, flew back from

America overnight.”

I said nothing.

Probably because his white moonlight ran off

again.

Just like before, she had a fight with Ethan

and ran to America, and he booked a flight

right in front of me to chase after her.

I was on my period that day, even wrapped in

a blanket, I felt freezing cold.

I sat shivering in front of him, watching his

long fingers tap decisively on his phone,

booking a flight that night.

I gritted my teeth and tried to keep him

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“Ethan, can you not go?”

Ethan’s bright eyes looked at me, a careless

smile on his face. “Stay home, I’ll bring you

back a gift.”

He lifted my chin, lightly kissed my lips, and

tucked the blanket around me. “Necklace or

bracelet?”

I didn’t speak.

Ethan loved giving people jewelry; he’d given

me tons, but never a ring.

He didn’t give Lily many gifts, but every one

was a ring.

I took a deep breath, looking at his lean,

handsome face, his pale skin, and still tried to

hold him back. “Can you really not stay?”

The smile faded from Ethan’s lips. He patted

my head. “You know what kind of relationship

we have.”

I stood there, speechless.

I was the one who pursued Ethan.

He had only one condition: our relationship

couldn’t be public, especially not in front of

Lily.

Simply put, I was a backup.

I had no right to stop him.

Even though we were living together and he’d

even brought me to family gatherings.

Seeing I wasn’t going to say anything else, he

smiled and kissed my forehead. “Be good, I’ll

bring you a gift when I get back.”

I lowered my head. “When will you be back?”

He stood up, slowly buttoning his shirt. “A

few days, maybe.” He probably didn’t expect

that this time, his white moonlight wasn’t just

going abroad for a break, she went to study,

and he ended up staying for a year.

I watched Ethan’s tall, broad back as he left,

sighing.

As if sensing my displeasure, Ethan turned

around. “Before I leave, think about anything

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you want me to do, I’ll do my best.”

Looking at his face, I thought for a moment.

“Can you help me look for someone? His

name is Kai, he’s a war correspondent.”

Ethan’s face darkened. “What’s your

relationship with him? If it’s unclear, I won’t

help.”

I pursed my lips. “My brother. My aunt’s son.”

Ethan’s expression softened slightly, he

nodded. “Wait for my news.”

He turned and left.

I watched his disappearing back, pulling out a

photo from my wallet.

The photo showed a lean, handsome man,

very similar to Ethan.

I stroked the photo.

Ethan was such a forgetful person.

I told him I grew up in an orphanage; I didn’t

have an aunt.

Lalso told him about the broth

care of me in the orphanage; we grew up

together.

But he listened and forgot.

He never suspected why I liked looking at his

face so much.

Only his face.

Ethan really loved Lily.

Even though Lily’s attitude was wavering for

so many years, unwilling to settle down.

He loved her wholeheartedly.

And I really loved Ethan-

His face.

A face similar to Kai’s.

I was always grateful to Ethan.

He saved me from a desperate situation.

When I met him, I had lost contact with Kai

for three years.

Many people said Kai was dead.

I was like a living corpse, lifeless.

Until I saw Ethan, my junior in college, one

year younger than me.

When I saw his face, so similar to Kai’s, I

cried.

I tried every means to get close to Ethan,

unconditionally kind to him.

Everyone knew I was Ethan’s shadow,

carrying his bags, his coat, buying things for

him, relaying messages when he fought with

Lily, helping him home when he was drunk.

Maybe because I was so good to him, so

good that he couldn’t ignore me.

So one night, after a fight with Lily, drunk, he

pulled me into his arms. “You like me?”

Looking at that lean, handsome face, I

nodded.

From that day on, I became Ethan’s secret

girlfriend.

If a backup could be considered a girlfriend.

This went on for years.

Ethan and Lily didn’t work out, but we ended

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Sometimes Ethan would hold me and sigh.

“Lauren, you’re the best woman to me. You

don’t even like my money.”

I smiled. “If you wanted to give me money, I

wouldn’t refuse.”

“But you don’t spend it,” Ethan’s bright eyes

stared at me. “You don’t wear my jewelry, you

don’t pressure me to go public.”

He said, “Sometimes I even feel like you’re

using me as a backup, too.”

I scratched his nose and buried myself in his

arms, laughing.

Backup or not, it didn’t matter.

People aren’t trees, we had already spent six

years together.

Those six years were important to me.

But Ethan didn’t think so.

Ethan still loved Lily so much, if Lily called

him late at night after a drink, he would

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him late at night after a drink, he would

immediately get dressed and go pick her up.

Before, Ethan would leave without

explanation.

But later, he started to explain, showing guilt.

I thought it meant I was starting to become

different in his heart.

But I was wrong.

He still chased Lily overseas, without giving

me a chance to hold him back.

He was gone for a year.

Ethan actually came back once during that

year.

He was drunk, and he asked me to pick him

1. up.

When I picked him up, he was sitting in a

nightclub VIP room, video chatting with Lily.

Seeing me, he waved. “Lauren, come here.”

He showed me to Lily. “Let me introduce you,

this is my girlfriend of six years, Lauren.”

Lily still had a cold expression.

But her eyes scanned me, pausing on my face

for a few seconds.

Then she smiled. “Ethan, you’ve changed your

mind?”

Ethan also smiled. “Yeah. Why would I leave

my gentle and virtuous wife to chase after

your cold shoulder?”

Lily saw Ethan hugging me and asked how

long we’d been together.

I answered honestly, six years.

Lily hung up the video.

The always proud Lily, lost her composure

without even saying goodbye.

Ethan’s arm around me stiffened.

That night, Ethan was hugging me to sleep.

He took a call in the middle of the night,

came back and kept kissing me, didn’t sleep

all night, just kept looking at me.

In the morning, his voice was hoarse. “Lauren,

it’s over between us.

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I didn’t sleep all night either.

I guessed it.

I heard Ethan’s phone call.

Lily lightly told him to break up; she said she

would get back together with him immediately

as long as he did.

I knew I wasn’t as important as Lily.

I nodded, not wanting the scene to be too

ugly, turning my back and wiping my eyes.

Ethan hugged me from behind, so tight!

could hardly breathe.

He whispered in my ear, “Your aunt’s son, I

have news. He’s not dead, he just has

amnesia, he’s overseas.‘

My whole body froze.

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I turned around. “Can you bring him back for

me?